NEW YEAR/LET'S CHECK IN

Hello 2023, It's that time of the year I always feel a gentle breeze, more so than a wind beneath my sails, a whisper from God saying ‘let's try again’  and I always stand up, dust down my mat, and prepare to walk through this journey called life another year.

A friend of mine called and asked me to give a word of how my 2022 went and I chewed my lips for a bit thinking and trying to work out how I could accurately depict a year that I felt like I had experienced  at the speed of a blink of an eye. Finally, I settled for ‘Hurdles’ Hurdles? she asked and I said ‘yeap!’ and we laughed.

So I explained it, it's like running on a track , in front of you are hurdles and as you run you start to realize every hurdle is a little high in height and then you realize that every seat surrounding the track is full of faces cheering you, motivated you jump through the first hurdle with ease, you run a little and you find the second one difficult, the third one you realize you can't even jump and now you can hear angry shouts from the crowd and now you give up you've failed, you read the dissapontment in the crowds faces. Last year was a series of hurdles that I failed to overcome.

Instead of jumping over them, I stumbled, I fell, sometimes. I just walked around them but I kept following the track.

Some days I'd jump the hurdles with ease and sometimes I'd walk around the track in silence blocking all the noise. Regardless I kept going.

So when I think about what my word for 2023 is gonna be, I thought discipline rather than having a list of goals or resolutions for each year I prefer a guiding word to shape my thinking for each year.

Even though my 2022 I kept hitting the hurdles, the best part is I kept going. I'm trying to think about it as the foundation training necessary for this NEW YEAR.    I've found myself being far more receptive to breaking down bad habits to their simplest forms and analyzing my behaviors, sitting through discomfort for the sake of gaining peace and much more.

So, another quiet year ahead but hopefully this one will consist of hurdles that  I will at least manage to jump through.